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posted : Tuesday, October 18, 2011
title : a modicum of discontent.
I was going to post an entry on How to be Happy, but seeing as how Happy is as close to my current emotional state as Singapore is to America, I think I should put that post off for a while.
Yesterday was such a depressing day. Made plans with two separate groups of people to visit the places that I've been positively dying to go, only to have them blow me off for one reason or another. I hate how my plans are always adjusted to the convenience of others, and even something as simple as going grocery shopping is a favour from the kinder people around here. I feel so handicapped. I hate how the bus comes around only twice a day, and takes an hour (plus a transfer) to arrive at a destination that would typically take 7 minutes by car. I hate how inaccessible everything is, and how the nearest fast food place is a 20 minute walk away. I hate how there's nowhere to go at night, and how people are so fixated on getting laid. I hate how all their conversations begin with "so I met this boy/man/freak of nature last night..." I hate how everyone's idea of having a good time is sitting at the pub, drinking beer and growing fat. I hate how people are so fickle about the way they feel about others, one moment they like everyone, and the next you hear them back stabbing each other. Why?! I like people. I like to like people. I like to be consistent about how I feel about people. I guess there are pros and cons to everything, even to living your dream, and I'm done ranting here. Maybe I'll drown my sorrows in some home made Jager bombs tonight. Goodbye. |
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